Sunday, May 8, 2016

Ocean Thoughts

All our lives we're looking for love.
We look for it from our parents first.
They created us so they must love us. 
Especially our fathers. 
If they aren't there then we tend to look to others.
...we look to bottles.
...we look to needles. 
...we look to...
anything but Jesus. 

To what end?
Can they save us?
Can they love us? 
It might feel like love but what may feel like love can be disguised as death.
If we look to our parents first for love because they made us then why do we so quickly turn away from the Creator? 
Do we really understand love?
It doesn't seem like it. 
Can we really understand love?
Jesus died for us. 
Gave up His life for us. 
If the greatest love is that one should lay down his life for his friend, then there's no greater love than found in Him. 

Friday, February 5, 2016

Reasons to Not Lose Hope

As I watch the news and read articles about recent events regarding racial tensions, terrorism, shootings, I can't help but think of a few things...

I wish sin never entered the world.

I wish humanity would love one another unconditionally.

I wish it didn't feel so hopeless at times.

It's hard to watch the news and see the brokenness that plagues society, that plagues our hearts.

BUT there are reasons not to lose hope:

Jesus came to Earth and lived the sinless life.

     God didn't give up on us even though we turned our backs on Him. He still came in pursuit of us. He has so much love for us that He humbled Himself to the point of denying His divinity and came to Earth as Jesus. There is plenty of historical evidence that a man name Jesus of Nazareth lived during the first century outside of the Bible, but the Bible includes four eyewitness accounts of His life on Earth and His sinlessness. He even experienced everything we'll experience on this Earth yet remained sinless. He can empathize with us. But that's not all...

Jesus died the death we deserve.

     He has so much love for us that He humbled Himself to the point of death. That death is something we deserve because of our disobedience and sinful hearts. Jesus' death is even something historically documented as fact outside of the Bible. But that's still not all...

Jesus resurrected and redeemed us from the separation our sin creates.

     He overcame that death and resurrected, conquering sin and death once and for all. He created a bridge between God and man that we might experience everlasting life and intimate relationship with our Creator once again, as He originally intended. Jesus' body missing from the tomb is something also documented outside of the Bible.

If the story presented in the Bible is true, which I believe it is, and Jesus is who He said He is and did what is recounted numerous times, then...

Why not believe in a great Creator who loves you?

Why not believe in a God who can empathize with your weaknesses?

Why not believe in the greatest miracle of all times?

Why not believe in the greatest news ever told?

What is there to lose except maybe your pride? Your chains? Your strongholds? Everything that holds you back from being a loving, fulfilled, complete creation?

Did we create the world? Did we set everything into motion? Do we hold all of eternity together with perfect precision? No. And how could all of this intricate universe come from nothing? Wouldn't we still see things randomly appear if that were the case? Why is it a fact that everything that comes into existence now has to be created if that wasn't the case for everything in the beginning?

So why do we think we can decide what's right and what's wrong? What's God and what's not? That it's somehow relative? Truth can't be relative. It just can't. If truth is relative, when one "truth" says another "truth" is a lie, which one is true? Logically, they can't both be. There has to be absolute truth.

We have to start from somewhere. The question is, where? Where are we going to base our moral truth, our moral compass, and source of truth? In people, who have very little control over anything, or in an all-powerful, loving Creator, who knows everything intimately, controls everything, and made everything to be exactly as it is?

The hope isn't in ourselves but in God and allowing Him, and partnering with Him, to restore His creation. It is there that we find harmony, love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, faithfulness, and self control. If you think about it, aren't these the things we long for in everything that's wrong with society? But what are those? We find this list in Galatians 5:22-23, the fruit of the Holy Spirit. We can't find them or foster them or cultivate them without God.

So I ask you this question, are you truly in search of truth or just arguments that will validate your own opinions?

Don't take my word for it. Get out a Bible. Do some research. Have conversations with people who believe differently than you. Let the search for truth be a never-ending quest.

And just because it may feel hopeless at times, doesn't mean there is none. Because... there's always Hope.

Monday, January 11, 2016

Life's Little Messes

I can remember a time I was sitting in Starbucks listening to a father interact with his daughter at the table next to me. It made me think: what must it look like for God to interact with us as our Father. I think about this a lot when I observe children with their parents.

When the pair sat down at the table, he helped her up onto the booth chair and tucked her into place with the table.

He gave her a muffin he bought her and asked her if she wanted some water. Upon her request, he promptly retrieved the water for her.

As the pair sat, the father spent time on his phone but also asked his daughter what she had learned at school that day.

He listened intently to the sorrows a 5 year old may face in a day at kindergarten.

After the two had enjoyed some time together, the daughter spilled her water on herself and was immediately very upset. She cried and said everything was ruined.

The father comforted her and reassured her that it was ok. She cried harder as she felt that her clothes were ruined but the father continued to sweetly clean her up and tell her it was no big deal.

As I ponder back through this series of events, I think, how many times have I sat before God crying because I think everything is ruined but He continues to reassure me, it's ok, my beloved. Why does it take so much for us to understand that God is a good, loving Father?

Sunday, August 16, 2015

What is Love?

I've been in love.
A few times.

Am I married? No.

Am I in a relationship? No.

I'm thankful that doesn't mean there's something terribly wrong with me.

I've been in a 4.5 year relationship and a 4.5 month relationship both of which could have led to marriage and were both moving in that direction. I essentially ended both of them. Why? They weren't right. Was it hard? Extremely. A couple of the hardest things I've ever had to do.

Those of us who are single and wanting to get married one day often look back at these attempts and see them as a failure. We assume we did something wrong or if they had just done x, y, or z right, we would have been "successful." That's because we some times only see that marriage equals success.

I will admit that those were some of my first thoughts.

None of those relationships were "failures" but lessons learned on the adventure that is life.

It's fun to look back with hindsight and see how silly you were or how blinded you were but also see just how much you've grown.

God has been taking me on a journey to discover more about love and how skewed my vision was. Do I have all of the answers? No. But to start, God took me to 1 John chapter 4, mostly verses 7 through 14:

"7 Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God; and everyone who loves is born of God and knows God. 8 The one who does not love does not know God, for God is love. 9 By this the love of God was manifested in us, that God has sent His only begotten Son into the world so that we might live through Him. 10 In this is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation for our sins. 11 Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. 12 No one has seen God at any time; if we love one another, God abides in us, and His love is perfected in us. 13 By this we know that we abide in Him and He in us, because He has given us of His Spirit. 14 We have seen and testify that the Father has sent the Son to be the Savior of the world." (NASB)

Based on this passage, what is love? Love can be defined as three things:

1. God is love.

God is love not in the simple way that we think about love. God is love in a way that is unfathomable, incomprehensible, and indescribable. God's nature. His essence. His will. His works are primarily love, unconditional love. This love is shown and manifested through the Gospel.

2. Love is the Gospel.

The gospel is the good news that God became man in Jesus Christ. He lived the life we should have lived and died the death we should have died, in our place. Three days later, He rose from the dead, proving that He is the Son of God, and offering the gift of salvation for all who repent and believe in the gospel.

God sent His Son to save us from the death we deserve because of our rebellion as sinners. He took our place, purchasing our freedom that we may know God and love Him. How do we know God and grow in our relationship with Him?

3. Love is intimacy. 

As Christians, we are given the Holy Spirit to be our helper and our counselor (John 14:26). The Holy Spirit is God abiding in us that we may know Him intimately. It is through this intimacy that love is perfected. Why is it that it takes God's love being in us for it to be perfected? 

Here's where I think it gets real interesting. It is through this intimacy and the fruit of the Spirit that we see evidence of God. The first fruit of the Spirit listed in Galatians 5:22 is...? Love! Coincidence? I don't think so. In 1 John 4:7-14, John is talking about God being love and that love being manifested in the sacrifice made my Jesus on the cross for our sins, the Gospel.

(Side note: In 1 Corinthians 13, love is also defined. Verse 4 starts, "Love is patient; love is kind..." There's two more fruit of the Spirit right there!)

What does the Christian faith start with? When do you actually become a Christian? It is when someone repents and believes Jesus is the Son of God, lived the life we should have lived, died the death we should have died and three days later rose from the dead. Essentially, the Christian faith starts with the Gospel. If love is the Gospel, then wouldn't it just have to make sense that the first fruit of the Spirit is love? Because once you understand the Gospel, you begin to understand love.  

If you haven't caught on, this post isn't really about my love life. I think what we can do with a passage like this is help spread the news of what love truly is. The Gospel. Especially with what we see happening around us in the world today with race issues, ISIS/terrorism, gender confusion, homosexuality, abortion, and so on. Too many people are being shot, killed, or mutilated out of an inaccurate and unhealthy view of what love is.

We can become fearful, defensive, offensive, reactive, passive, aggressive, etc. but what about becoming loving? Joyful? Peaceful? Patient? Kind? Good? Faithful? Self-controlled? How do we love one another if we don't know what that truly means because we don't know what love really is?

God is love. Love is the Gospel. Love is intimacy.

Let's talk about the Good News and spread a little love around instead of hate. 

Thursday, February 5, 2015

God Knows What We Need

I love mornings/days when I have time to myself to just sit and listen to music and let it sink into my soul.

This morning I've had the You Make Me Brave by Bethel Music Spotify playlist playing on my phone. No one is home so I can just sing out to my heart's desire. Don't get me wrong, I'll still sing when others are around, but there's just something about being alone and letting go, unashamed of the notes your hitting (or not hitting). I have a cold so my voice is struggling, but that's the beauty of headphones, especially noise canceling ones, they drown out your voice.

Music is the primary way through which I connect with God. I'm thankful He's not worried about what my voice sounds like. I'm thankful He's just listening to my heart and that He hears it more clearly than anyone else. I get tears of joy just thinking about it. To know someone knows you so deeply and intimately and still loves you all the same is mind blowing. This is why I love creating this safe space in which I can pour out my heart to God through music. Whether I am singing my heart out or just letting the lyrics sink in, both are therapeutic and healing to my heart and spirit.

God knows what we need; He knows what we want. He promises that when we rest in him, He will give us the desires of our heart. Who better to rely on than the one who created that heart and knows inside and out what it needs? I feel like God's prompting me to ask you what you are trying to hide from Him inside your heart? What are you holding onto? Take some time to sit in silence and let Him speak. It's such a sweet process to surrender everything and allow God to fill that space with His love, grace, mercy, and tenderness.

This is a word to myself as well as anyone to ventures to read this. We could all use more quiet time, alone with God, to search our souls and rid ourselves of what hinders us from truly knowing God. We are more wicked and flawed than we dared believe and more loved and affirmed than we ever dared hope. It's the beautiful message of the gospel. We're so messed up, but God loves us so much, He saved us from death. Step into His presence today. Step into the freedom He's offering. Step out as a new creation. You're beautiful. You're loved. You're exactly who He made you to be. May your day be favored and my your heart be stirred.


Wednesday, December 31, 2014

It's That Time Of Year

It's this time of year that we look back on the year and think about the things that transpired.

It's the time of year we think about our regrets.

It's the time of year we think about our successes.

It's the time of year we consider who we are and who we truly want to be.

We get nostalgic, existential, introspective, inspired, motivated, determined, maybe depressed, excited, goal-oriented, ready to take on the world. But for how long?

I'm a fan of introspection and self-reformation, but I often wonder how successful it is when it only comes, for many of us, one time during each year out of which we make resolutions that we fail to keep. I don't tend to set resolutions because I don't feel like I need the start of a year to motivate me to change things.

But when we do set resolutions, some times I don't think we're realistic with ourselves in the goals, so we set ourselves up for failure. So if we choose to make resolutions for the coming year, make sure they're because you truly feel this is something that is going to better who you are/your health or the lives of those around you. If this time of the year motivates you to make some resolutions and you truly want to be successful, I would encourage to only set a few, say 2 or 3, that are realistic and have an accountability partner to hold you to them and encourage you. But I'm not here to lecture you or give you a lesson about goal setting.

The best thing we can do for ourselves during this time is choose to love more. Think about the events that this last year encompassed and think about areas in your life where you can love people better. I'm sure there are things you regret doing or saying or wish you hadn't experienced, but those are done and gone. Let's not get hung up on the things we can't change and rest in the fact that there's new mercy every morning. In many cases, I truly think the solution is just we need to love people more or love people better.

There are a handful of things I can think of from this past year that I wish I didn't do or say or decide but I can't take them back. I've tried. But I can't, and all I'm focused on is loving God and loving people better. I'm excited about this new chapter in life as a campus missionary and thankful for all of the people who have chosen to partner with me! I'm looking forward to the new adventures, new friends, and new experiences that 2015 holds as well as all that stays the same!

Happy New Years! May God bless you because He loves you, not just because it's a new year. :)

Monday, December 1, 2014

Fast Food Front

Has anyone else noticed the trend among fast food restaurants to upgrade their buildings to look fancier and more modern?

Over the past couple of weeks, as I've been driving around Atlanta, I've seen McDonald's, Wendy's, and Arby's restaurants that have upgraded looks. McDonald's and Wendy's seemed to be the ones to start the trend a few years ago. But I just kind of think it's funny. It's like they're saying, if we build a better looking building, that suddenly makes our food fancier and healthier. The sad part is it's probably worked in the minds of many Americans considering the vast amount of fast food we consume.

This got me thinking though. How often do we try to only change what we look like on the outside? We get makeovers. We use make up. We get a new "style." We cut our hair. We grow out our hair. We grow facial hair. We shave off facial hair. We get plastic surgery. We act a certain way to fit in with a specific crowd. We do whatever it takes to fully invest in looking the "right" way that we think will truly represent who we are, or, probably more accurately, who we want people to think we are. Especially in Western culture, we are bombarded with images of what is the best way to look and how to better your image if you aren't happy with what you got.

But how much time do we spend transforming what we look like on the inside?

I'm going to let that resonate for a minute...

How much time do we spend transforming ourselves on the inside? By this I mean, how much do we pay attention to our character? How much do we pay attention to how we're loving people? How much are we paying attending to the condition of our souls? 

If we really want the outside to "look better," we need to focus more on changing the inside first. I don't think it's a coincidence that the Bible has so many verses about transformation and how it's about an inside out transformation, a transformation of the soul, of the heart, of the mind. It talks about the good things we'll do and how we'll do these and love people better as a result of this change that comes from a belief and inner transformation by the penetration of the Gospel.

If we try to just change our actions and what we look like, we're just a fake fa├žade putting on a front like these fast food restaurants. These food chains may look nice and clean and inviting from the outside, but the contents that await inside are not good. They may taste good, but they are not good for you. I don't think I really need to go into all of the details of how bad fast food is for you.

So what are you afraid of? Let's be authentic. Let's look at our inner selves. Let's examine what's truly there, not what we hope is there. This can and will be painful. But the result of rooting this out and breaking through it with the help of Jesus, the Holy Spirit, and the Heavenly Father produces such a sweet love and a sweet bond if you let it.

Press in. Press on.